Saturday, March 23, 2013

I HATE being sick

I do.  I hate getting sick.  And to make matters worse, I am, essentially, a wienie.  The only thing that kept be from being a complete whiny-baby-patient back when I was married was that whenever I would get sick, Kim would vacate the premises.

It was great being married to a Nurse.  I remember the first time I got sick after Kim died.  I went to the pharmacy section at Walmart and just stood and stared at over the counter medicines for 45 minutes.  I didn't have a clue what to get.  Kim always hooked me up and told me what I needed to do...and then she'd go stay with her sister for a few days!  She was a Nurse and a great caregiver but her own compromised immune system necessitated her hitting the road whenever I'd get sick.

So this past Thursday night I had a bout with food poisoning.  I knew almost immediately that's what it was.  It could have come from any one of 2 or 3 leftovers I had earlier that day.  (Time to clean out the refrigerator!)  Anyway, it's been a long time since I've felt that bad.  By 3 am I was dispensing liquids from both ends.  That's graphic, huh?

By early morning I was kinda scared because I couldn't keep liquid (or medicine!!) down for more than 5 minutes.  I knew where that was headed so I texted my team leaders wife (She's a Dr.) and sent out a Facebook plea for help.  Within a couple hours I had several people offering to pick-up medicine and bland foods for me.

Realistically, I guess food poisoning would have run it's course within a 24 hour period.  Maybe I could have toughed it out.  But I'm glad I didn't have to.

This episode made me think though:

1.  My landlord is battling cancer.  She brought some toast and berries downstairs and told me that she's had the same symptoms for 4 days because of her treatments (see? I'm a wienie!).
2.  What about all those people in the world without clean water who battle constantly with diarrhea with virtually no chance to recover.  People die from what could so easily be treated.
3.  I watched a movie a few weeks ago about Jews that survived in the sewers of Lviv during World War Two.  Many times they would have to eat terribly rotten food.  What would you do if you were starving and the only food you could eat was rotten and would make you sick?  If you don't eat, you're going to die.  If you eat, you're going to get sick and might die.
4.  I'm thankful for friends here in Ukraine.  Medicine isn't sold in grocery stores here.  You can't go to Walmart and grab some Imodium and some Bananas.  You have to go to a Pharmacy and tell them what you want and you have to go to the market or a grocery store.  And not many of my friends have cars so that means they have to get out and deal with public transportation and walking and I do live off the beaten path out in the "burbs".
5. I'm a wienie.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

I am about to get really busy for a few weeks!

We're leading worship again this coming Sunday morning.  I've had a lingering Cold and cough now for about 2 weeks.  But life doesn't stop just because I don't have much range in my voice!

Next Tuesday (March 26) I'm catching an early morning Marshrutka (overcrowded mini-bus) from here to Chop where I'll buy a train ticket to Debrecen, Hungary which is only about an hour and a half away once you get over the border.  From Debrecen, my friend Darrell will take me to the airport where I'll catch a plane to LONDON!  Woohoo!

I'll be in London nearly a whole week visiting my friend Charles and his son, Josh and some other folks who will be there on a Spring Break mission trip.  I have some other friends in London, too and hope to catch up with them as well.  I also plan to eat things I can't get here, go to some museums, maybe some Plays or Musicals, take lots of pictures with my new camera and go to an English speaking Church or two!  Probably Hillsong London!

When I return the following week to Ukraine (April 2) I'll have a 3-4 day turnaround before going to Kalush with Christina to coach the church there for the weekend (April 5-7).  Afterwards we plan to spend a night with the Blessing family in Lviv and learn more about their ministry.

From Lviv, I will go to Kiev by train where I will meet Douglas (April 10) a couple days later and where we will meet a team from two US Churches coming over for a vision trip.  We will visit some ministry sites there, in Ternopil (April 11) and back here in Uzhgorod (April 12)  and then go back to Kiev (April 14) where we will fly to Kyrgyzstan (April 15-18)!  I'm really excited about that trip!  We will have long layovers in Istanbul going and coming and I'm hoping to connect with some friends that are in ministry there!

Upon returning to Uzhgorod at the end of that trip (April 20 or 21), I will have another 3-4 day turnaround before working at and speaking at our Spring Youth Ministry Conference in nearby Mukachevo (April 26-27)!

The day after the Re:Fresh Conference, I will welcome a team of World Racers (April 28) who will stay with me in May!

What's your calendar for the next month look like?

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Has it really been 7 years?


I've been without Kim for 7 years today.  We were married a few months short of 9 years.  In just a couple more years I will have been without her for longer than we were married; a couple years beyond that, if the Lord keeps me here, I will be without her longer than I knew her.

Surreal.

I went to bed last night with these thoughts.  I woke up with them this morning.

I'll spend a couple hours tonight playing Uno and Jenga with college kids but these thoughts will be on my mind.

Inescapable.

What would life be like if that day had never happened?  You can't really play that game can you?

Rick Warren might say that these are the cards I've been dealt.  I have no control over my chemistry, connections, consciousness, or circumstances...but I do have control over my choices.

I've made good ones and I've made bad ones.  I'm probably not through yet with either.

But I keep saying, I keep telling people that I'd do it all over again.  It was the choice I made to marry Kim knowing full well what the outcome would be.  I'd do it all over again.

I keep thinking that someday the story will be complete.  Someday it will make sense.  Someday I'll understand why on the verge of 50 I'm still not a Daddy.  Someday I'll understand the apparent contradiction between desiring to be a daddy and marrying someone that precluded that possibility (and believing that if I had it to do over again I'd make the same choice).

Someday.